FOR THE GIRLS' SAKE
Harlequin Heartwarming (January 1, 2013)
Lynn Chanak is living the nightmare every mother fears. There was a mix-up at the hospital. Her baby isn't hers. And the only way she can have the baby she gave birth to and keep the child she loves is to marry Adam Landry—a man she doesn't even know.
Adam was devastated when his Jenny died. And his only consolation was their daughter. But as much as he loves Rose, he can't stand to think that the child Jenny carried for nine months will grow up without him. If marrying a stranger is what it takes to have both his daughters, then that's what he'll do. Even though he still loves Jenny...
O + O does not = B. So why was she even nervous?
Oblivious to the salt-scented breeze and the familiar whoosh of the broken surf, Lynn Chanak stared at the envelope in her hand. Open it, she told herself. Then you can quit worrying about nothing.
And nothing was just what it would prove to be.
That Portland lab had mixed up somebody else's blood with Shelly's. It was dumb to let the results shake her even for a minute. Poor Shelly had had to endure being stuck with a needle again, which still made Lynn mad, but it was done, over with, and now with the results from the new lab she'd be able to refute her ex-husband's ridiculous accusation.
There was no way a second lab would make the same kind of mistake. Lynn and Brian both had Type O blood; she'd once been foolish enough to think that meant they were made for each other.
With both parents having Type O blood, Shelly had to have the same.
So why not open the envelope?
"Mama!" Lynn's three-and-a-half-year-old daughter tugged at her sleeve. "See what I found?"
The small hand cupped a flame-red, wave-polished chunk of agate that beachcombing tourists would have killed for.
Lynn smiled in delight and hugged her daughter. "That's a pretty one! You've got sharp eyes!"
She sat on a gray, winter-tossed log on the beach, the pile of mail in her hand. This was a daily ritual for her and Shelly when the shop was closed. Wait for the mail, don sweatshirts against the sharp breeze, and then walk the two blocks from home to the rocky beach, famous for the sea stacks that reared offshore. Otter Beach had been a tiny lumber town until the Oregon coast became a favorite tourist destination. Now streets were lined with art galleries and antique shops, and prime beachfront real estate was taken by inns and bed-and-breakfasts.
Lynn's bookstore was one block over from the main street. The upstairs of the old house was home, the downstairs her business. During tourist season, she stayed open six days a week. By the time winter storms pounded the coast, she only bothered to open from Thursday through Sunday for locals and for the few hardy souls who came for romantic weekends and beachcombing after storms deposited Japanese floats and agates on the shore.
"I'll give this to Daddy next time he comes," Shelly announced. "C'n you save it for him, Mommy?"
"You bet, sweetie," agreed Lynn, hiding her dismay. How was she going to explain to a three-year-old why Daddy wasn't visiting anymore?
Giggling, Shelly wormed her hand into the pocket of Lynn's faded, zip-front sweatshirt to deposit her find. The chunk of agate joined the crab claw and the mussel shell entwined with dried seaweed that she'd already collected.
For a moment Lynn watched as Shelly wandered away. She looked so cute in her denim overalls and rubber-toed sneakers, her mink-brown ponytail straight and sleek. Lynn tried hard to see what Brian did, but how could she? This was her daughter.
So what if her own hair was a warm, wavy chestnut-brown, if Brian was blond? So what if Shelly's eyes were brown, while Lynn's were green and Brian's blue? Kids didn't always look just like their parents. In fact, they hardly ever did. The genes that created a person were like?like the threads of color in a Persian carpet, thousands of bits of wool, woven together with a complexity that defied any ability to say that a certain blue came from such and such a sheep. Shelly might look like some forgotten great-grandmother. Did it matter that her face wasn't a reflection of her father's?
Apparently it did to Brian. He'd always been unreasonably jealous, both before they were married—when Lynn considered pos-sessiveness romantic—and after. The marriage had been a mistake, a terrible mistake. Guilt ate at Lynn every time she thought about Brian, because she knew the failure was hers. She shouldn't have married him. He was right when he had believed she didn't love him enough.
But she had never been unfaithful. There hadn't been another man; probably never would be, now that she knew she wasn't capable of the kind of passion a lifetime commitment required. She hadn't given Brian any reason to suspect she was seeing someone, so it outraged her that now he should claim Shelly wasn't his.
Lynn bitterly resented having to put a three-year-old through the scary process of having blood drawn, but she'd done it. Not just because she needed Brian to keep paying the child support, but also because Shelly needed her dad.
So why wasn't she tearing open the envelope? Lynn wrenched her gaze from Shelly, crouched on her heels ten yards down the beach staring with intense fascination at something, and studied the return address on the envelope. McElvoy Laboratories, Seattle, Washington.
A different lab. Lynn hadn't taken Shelly back to their regular clinic for the second blood draw. She'd driven to Lincoln City. Of course she should have marched back into their doctor's office, waving that stupid piece of paper and proclaiming her indignation at the mistake. She shouldn't have had to pay for the second round of analysis. But she'd felt?cautious.
She made a face. Gun-shy. Brian had made her paranoid. She didn't want to give him any ammunition. If he knew about the first results, he wouldn't believe the second ones. He'd want more, instead of accepting the truth when she handed it to him.
Anyway, a voice whispered, what if it wasn't a mistake? Shelly doesn't look like either parent.
"Oh, right!" she said out loud. For goodness' sake, she'd been awake and present during her awful labor. Sure, because of the hemorrhaging, she hadn't seen her newborn daughter for the first hours, but then they'd laid the tiny red-faced baby at her breast, and she'd held her and loved her ever since. And so had Brian! Only, now he had to get suspicious. Or cheap. He was late sometimes with the child-support check. Think what a good excuse this would be not to pay at all!
Lynn glanced up again; her daughter was in the exact same spot. A miniature tide pool, probably. Shelly had learned not to take living creatures from them, only to observe. She'd seen the difference between the rich color of a sea star clinging to a rock beneath the water and the dull hard body of a dead preserved one. She loved the scamper of tiny crabs, the dart of brown sandpipers, the hoarse roar of sea lions on the rocks offshore. This was home, magical and familiar at the same time.
Like having a child. For fleeting moments, Lynn saw through her daughter's eyes and became three years old again. Wondering, awed, frightened, reassured by simple comforts.Other times, Lynn was perplexed by this complete, small person her daughter seemed to be. It was as if she'd been born
whole, finished, and all Lynn could do was open the world to her. The idea that a parent could shape her child was as silly as believing the same blood type meant two people were mysteriously akin.
Lynn couldn't understand her reluctance. She kept fingering that envelope. She'd peeked at all the bills, even flipped through a couple of publishers' catalogs as if their spring lists mattered more than the blood that traced pale blue lines beneath the translucent skin of her daughter's wrists, that beaded crimson when Shelly skinned her knee. Life-blood.
Still Shelly crouched in the same spot, her attention span astonishing for a child her age. She didn't need her mom right now, except as home base. A pocket and a smile and a hug.
Lynn tore open the envelope and pulled out the single sheet of paper. Unfolded it, and stared down at the bald black letter B. There was more, but she didn't see it.
Her heart pounded so hard she wouldn't have heard Shelly scream. Her vision misted, and she had the eerie sensation of being alone on the beach after a late-afternoon fog had rolled in. Everything was gray, indistinct, abruptly looming in front of her and then swallowed behind her. Oh no, oh no, oh no.
There had been no other man. Only Brian, ever. If Brian wasn't the father of Shelly Schoening, then she—Lynn—wasn't her mother, either.
How was that possible?
She moaned and hugged her knees. How?
She could think of only one answer. Somehow, two babies had been switched in the hospital. The little girl laid to nurse at her breast wasn't the one she'd carried for nine months. Her own baby had been given to another mother.
Somewhere, a toddler with bright blue eyes like Brian's or chestnut-brown hair like Lynn's called another woman Mommy.
Lynn whimpered again.
Swallowing her terror, Lynn looked into Shelly's frightened brown eyes. "Yes, honey?" She sounded only a little hoarse.
"Is Mommy sick?"
To death. Her whole world was her daughter. Not that unknown child somewhere, the one who might look like her, but this child—the one she'd nursed and diapered, whose toes she'd tickled and counted, the one who squeezed her hand and waited for an answer.
"No," she said. "Yes. Mommy's tummy felt funny for a minute. Like this." She burrowed her hand inside the OshKosh overalls and tickled until Shelly's elfin face crinkled with a giggle.
Shelly wrapped her arms around her mother's neck and pressed her cold, plump cheek against Lynn's. "I wanna cheeseburger," she confided. "And chocolate milk."
Lynn hugged back. Hugged until the toddler squeaked with alarm.
"You know what?" Lynn said. "A cheeseburger sounds good to me, too. And chocolate milk. What do you say we go home?"
Shelly nodded vigorously. Lynn rose from the log, feeling as stiff as an old woman. She collected her pile of mail and took her daughter's small hand. Feeling numb, she turned her back on the waves, her sneakered feet accustomed to the way the beach stones and sand gave with each step. One forward, half back. A struggle that strengthened the body.
Her daughter chattered. Lynn heard not a word, although she smiled and agreed.
She focused passionately on only one thought: Shelly was hers. Nobody must ever know that maybe, somehow, she wasn't.
After lunch, while Shelly napped, Lynn sat at the kitchen table and convinced herself that Brian couldn't insist on this blood work. She'd give up the child-support money first, tell him he could think what he liked. Even agree that he was right, although she hated the idea of letting him believe she'd sneaked around with some man she hardly knew—because, after all, she had no real friends who were male.
It took until five o'clock for Lynn to get angry. She put water on to boil for macaroni and went to check on Shelly. She was curled at one end of the shabby velveteen couch watching Dumbo for the thousandth time. Her flowered flannel blanket was tucked under one arm and her thumb was in her mouth. On the dentist's advice, Lynn had been trying to break her of sucking her thumb, but tonight she didn't say anything, just kissed the silky top of Shelly's head and breathed in her essence before going back to the kitchen.
Things like babies getting switched in the hospital didn't happen! she thought incredulously, then more firmly. Parents were always afraid they would, but hospitals took such precautions these days. Lynn still had the plastic band that had been around Shelly's plump wrist when she was released from the hospital. It had exactly matched Lynn's.
No. There had to be some other explanation.
This lab was wrong, too?
She poured the macaroni into the boiling water and frowned.
Wait! Could Brian have lied about his blood type? She stirred the macaroni and tried to remember. Had she said what hers was first? It would be like him to try to create a fiction to make it sound as though they were destined for each other. He'd wanted to go out with her from the first time they'd met, in the bookstore where she'd worked after she graduated from college.
Closing her eyes, Lynn tried to replay the scene. A popular professor at the university had been in a car accident, and the English department had held a blood drive. She'd been resting after giving a pint when the nurse pushed back the curtain and said, "If you've finished your juice, you're all set!"
And there Brian was, on the next gurney. Still lying down, he'd turned his head and grinned. "Hey, they've been sucking blood out of you, too, huh?"
He'd come into the bookstore for the first time just the previous weekend. Or, at least, she'd noticed him for the first time. And how could she not have noticed him? He was six feet two inches, with short sun-streaked blond hair and bright blue eyes. He was tanned from skiing at Mount Hood. She'd asked, because it was winter and most people in Portland were pale. He looked like a surfer, broad shouldered and athletic and golden.
"Well, it was voluntary," she'd said shyly.
"Yeah, so they say." He waved away the orange juice and sat up without taking it slowly. How like a man!
Somehow they ended up walking out together. And?yes! He'd asked, "What type blood do you have?"
She did volunteer the information first. She distinctly remembered the way he'd turned and said, so seriously, "That means the same blood runs through our veins. We must be meant for each other."
She'd made it a joke; they'd both laughed, but a small thrill had run through her at the idea, presented with the intensity and gravity of a marriage proposal.
The more fool her!
She dumped the macaroni into the waiting colander, jumping when the boiling water splashed her hand. She should have known better. The single, chipped porcelain sink was shallow, and she was always careful.
Tears sprang to her eyes as she turned on the cold water and stuck her hand under it.
Why, that creep! All this anguish, and he'd lied!
She told herself she was furious, but really relief flooded her in a sweet tide. Such a simple explanation! And after she'd come up with such a convoluted one.
The relief lasted all evening. She played Chutes and Ladders with Shelly, then told silly stories and every knock-knock joke she could think of at bedtime, buoyed by that wash of exquisite release from fear.
She thought about calling him, the scumbag, and saying, "I might think about checking our daughter's blood type, if I knew what yours really is."
But, although she should be madder than she was, Lynn still thought she should cool down before she confronted him. Besides, she wanted to be sure of herself.
She could ask his mother. No, better yet, she could call the blood bank and say that he'd been in a car accident, and she didn't remember his blood type but she knew he'd donated.